9 years

July will be coming to an end. I just love staircase so much that now I'm writing  blog by the staircase.haha 

: )  It will be soon 9 years I get to knw you.I'm sorry for letting our friendship to end the way we don't wish to.I once told you to remember the date after my birthday,which is the day we met each other.I guess now,you wouldnt remember anymore. Recently, I saw many of your vacation photos, all that are very beautiful.I used to comments on the photos you took, but now, although I don't comment, it doesnt meant that I did not look at it.Whenever I get to know, you took lotsa pictures,I will be asking u to upload those photos.haha : )

On your graduation day,I did wish you and you knw it .You struggled alot and you deserve it.You proved to me I can do even better than you.That's why, you are not only my supporter but also my inspiration.Your words and advice still kept very tight inside my heart although I realised the facts that I need to forget all that.

When I called to wish you on your special day after the finals of my third semester in foundation, I wish I can tell you, I feel very pain,pain and pain on my leg.I heard your cheerful voice and I told myself I have to be strong and not letting you to know the pains on my leg because I want you to be the happiest man in the world.If I tell you,I will burst into tears, and I will have no reason to forget every words from you that build the confidence in me.Just only  a call to 'wish' already make me cried after the call had ended.I spoke very calm and happy on the call but it doesnt seems to be like that.It's good that you know, I already find the old me.

Thank you that you used to be the person that cares me alot.No matter what I encounter in life, you always stick in my mind.Thank you that at times of failures and at times when I said I couldnt, you showed me there are always ways.It's true that 'THE BEST OF ME, REMINDS ME OF YOU'.

Happy 9th years !
Lots of love,

Teddy bear miss you.. : ' (

Exactly 2 months..& 1 month to go

Halo ! Halo ! Halo ! Haha. How are you , my dear readers : )

Yes it had been 2 months after my operation but still in a recovery stage.Actually I have alot to share from the start till the end of what had happened to me for the past few months but I just have no time yet.Currently so busy for all those commitments of being a student.I'm missing semester break so much and also time with my family.If given a chance, I wish to go back to my primary & secondary school life.haha.but impossible right?

1 month to go refers to what? My BIRTHDAY ! Yipee ! hahaha. I guess I gotta love 22 so much.The date 22 always have something that change my life . 

Every 22 August - my birthday 

but not every 22 June - my operation. HAHA.Oh, this is going to be the first and last time ! God blessed ...

Thank you to my lovely parents and my siblings especially my  eldest brother, for always be with me whatever that happens in my life.I feel I am the luckiest sister for having  such a good brother .  hee : )

I am thankful too for everyone who helps me when I'm down, especially my friends for all the support that I received. 

It will never be the same anymore .... : ( but I thank God for what I have. Just a short updates for a break of a stressful mind.

Sincerely, 

Eileen 

A call...we are two different person

Halo everyone.Thanks for visiting my blog.I think I hv changed.Change for the facts that,I begin to accept the absence of you .Yes it had been 1 year,9 months and 7 days. As time move on, it makes me clear of the reasons . Recently, I call and wish you on the special day of yours.This is the first time I never laugh when I speak with you,our conversation are serious.We are like strangers and never like last time anymore.I speak what's necessary and that's it, our conversation ends...

Maybe, I just don't want you to feel that I still care for you.I told you,everything had been so well but it doesnt appears to be well.Last time if anything happens to me , you will be one of the earliest to know but now, you never need to know : '(  very sad ...

Now,it's still the heart that sometimes sad but I guess I have move on to a stage where I'm looking forward and not turning back.I couldnt be dreaming for the past as the present awaits me.What I apprcte the most is that you believe in me  rather than I believe in myself.Thank you for believing in me at times of my failure.Unfortunately,I have lost a very important person in my heart, a person who inspires me with his words and advice to make me a better person.I cried ...but no matter how much tears,you will not be anymore...TEDDY BEAR MISS YOU 

Lots of love <3 <3

Eileen