Wednesday, 20 August 2014

Nothing is meaningful,just 20


A day to my birthday and my blessing day ! Officially 20 to be.haha :) .This year will be the second year I celebrate it without my family.Getting used to it slowly and slowly.

This time, the only thing it seems meaningful is just about my age 20 for this birthday other than that, I don't seem meaningful to celebrate it.At first, I wish to celebrate with someone I cherish and love but that all have gone.Birthday is meant to spend with the person you love because only then we could learn the value of appreciating each other .If celebrating it brings more suffering than happiness, I would rather sleep and wake up the other day. At least, no tears would shed for unappreciation and ignorance.

I dont need a round cake, I just want the same cake you brought for me .I don't want your blessing unless you are the one who will make it happen.You told me before , you want to bring me to eat the food you like.At this moment of time, I guess it's impossible anymore for all that because at this particular moment, I'm just being  a person you used to care for NOT the person you care for anymore for now.

Lastly, still the same wish for you, a happiness for you.



Sunday, 10 August 2014

Wheel chair, my strength and part of life :)


The first day I stepped into Sime Darby Medical Centre Subang Jaya, I didn't actually walk and have to use a wheel chair because when I walked too much, I will feel really tired. Just imagine how can you walk with a leg not a pair of leg.The guard waited at the entrance and pushed a wheel chair to my car and slowly I came out from the car and sat at the wheel chair.They asked me which doctor ? I told him - Dr Tai Cheh Chin.They seems to know quite well so my first impression was wow, the doctor I'm going to meet quite popular.Hahaha. I don't even realise which floor they bring me to, what was in my mind is just that is the doctor I'm going to meet fierce? What I'm going to tell the doctor? I have my aunt and uncle accompanying me as I couldn't do anything all myself. 

Sitting on a wheel chair is great for short term but not long term of course. You will have the feeling of sadness that the elderly person take care of you but you just couldn't taking care of them.Wheel chair reminds me of my late grandmother, where I will pushed her when mum and I brought her to clinic or hospital. So, I have both the experience of sitting on the wheel chair and also pushing it.That is the first time, i try to learn moving the wheel chair by myself while sitting on it . Just have to be very careful so that it won't hurt your hand while you rolling the wheel happily.

The first day consulting Dr. Tai, I really feel lucky as I have him as my doctor.Why I said it lucky? Because I made appointment at the very last minute and luckily his appointment not full that day. His appoinment are always pack where you have to be at the waiting list so you just gotta need to make appointment like 3 weeks earlier if you are from far or else I guaranteed you, no more space for you. That day the hospital was quite busy with many patients along.I waited outside for quite some time, that is reasonable to wait and later his nurse came to me and asked what's my condition and all.I told her I had made an X-ray and wanted to do MRI scan and she went inside the doc's room and told everything to Dr. Tai . 

I felt it so funny when I told her I just wanted a MRI scan not an X ray . It looks like I'm the doctor.However the nurse told me that I need to do the X ray first as the doctor wants to see the result . I did an X ray at the government hospital and sadly I don't have a copy of it but the doc in the gov hospital did say the X ray shows nothing. Suddenly, Dr . Tai came out of his room and my mind was thinking is he my doctor, Dr Tai Cheh Chin ?? Is he the one I saw at the internet the picture of him?? Haha. He came to me at the wheel chair and said I'm your doctor  and told me so seriously plus abit funny the way he persuade me.We will surely go for MRI scan but before that let me see the x ray first.Ok girl, see you in a while. Awww :) My first impression of good doctor. He said it so seriously and funny that the patients at the waiting area where I am, heard of our conversation and all looking at me sitting at the wheel chair. Embarassing feeling but it's ok no one knows me there ! hahaha . 

Later, Dr Tai rushed to somewhere for a while probably to meet other doctor and he does not use walking but slow running with his nurse with him . So cool and yeng ! haha. And I was pushed by the X ray department for scanning and take the result.

All in all, my first time of sitting at the wheel chair , a doctor came to me :)

Sincerely,
Eileen , (the pleasant girl- given by Dr Tai )