Happy 2nd years ! I could only think about that wish.Thanks for being absent in my life for 2 years, you made me a better person I'm, compared to 2 years ago and you made me a stronger person than I ever be.As time is the best medicine, thank you for breaking this very heavy burden in my heart . I cried, many times esp before I slept because you always came to my mind.However, it was a year ago n I remembered I cried for the last time in January this year.I still having you in my new year wish and so did my birthday wishes.When I looked through all the wishes, that I received from you and sent to you, deep in my heart i still hope to receive wishes from you although it's impossible.
I feel like I lost a part of myself two years ago and I'm trying to find that part again.I know I am not the person that you used to know and finally im able to admit that and move on.The path towards that part of me, had not been easy and it takes longer time.I did work on it and even now still mend the part that had lost a little n little.I believe as time goes by, it will certainly be alot better. I had a bad feeling of missing you, when I forget the facts that you are away.I made all possible ways to make it like nothing ha happened but at last still, I couldnt deceive myself and face reality. The worst feeling is to have been dreamt about you having here in my heart.When I woke up, I would have tears & the pain feelings in my heart but everytime I cried, I persuade myself that everything is over and nothing could have changed the fate of you and me.
I'm happy that u are not only my motivator and educator but also a friend and many more that all moulded into one person.It's my fault for not appreciating how supportive you had been and I feel regret for not much to learn from the best in you which is the qualities that I admire and respect the most.Thanks for being the first person I'm willing to learn from every aspects of life and consider a role model till now.For the last time, I told you, no ..... can replace the best in you in my heart. Eventhough there are chances that I might meet someone which is much better in that particular field, the best in you will continue to stay in my heart forever.I guess you will remember this word from me, the words that only both of us know best 'my... is my best...'
Life without you, I find it hard to smile and be happy. Maybe because I pray to God to give my happiness to you or else I ll waste my own happiness because I just could not be happy like last time. Sometimes when I feel happy, I ll laugh a lot probably to forget the pain in my heart, to let everything out and giving myself chance to start over again to find back the happiness I lost. At times, I have to force a smile so that people around me, those who concern about me will not feel I'm not happy and be worry.
I'm happy that u are not only my motivator and educator but also a friend and many more that all moulded into one person.It's my fault for not appreciating how supportive you had been and I feel regret for not much to learn from the best in you which is the qualities that I admire and respect the most.Thanks for being the first person I'm willing to learn from every aspects of life and consider a role model till now.For the last time, I told you, no ..... can replace the best in you in my heart. Eventhough there are chances that I might meet someone which is much better in that particular field, the best in you will continue to stay in my heart forever.I guess you will remember this word from me, the words that only both of us know best 'my... is my best...'
Life without you, I find it hard to smile and be happy. Maybe because I pray to God to give my happiness to you or else I ll waste my own happiness because I just could not be happy like last time. Sometimes when I feel happy, I ll laugh a lot probably to forget the pain in my heart, to let everything out and giving myself chance to start over again to find back the happiness I lost. At times, I have to force a smile so that people around me, those who concern about me will not feel I'm not happy and be worry.
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