Ello...my earlier plan was to write the post on the 22nd this month of July but it's ok ! Mood must be there to write a good one :) Why is it 22nd of July? Because it is a month away towards my bestday ! Birthday is too mainstream so lets call it my bestday ..This year again I'm alone nt with family on my birthday .
Anyway, throughout my life towards 20 this coming besday, I went through many surprises from my bestie who actually came to my house and celebrated it with me. They surprised me together with my family and bring home cooked food for me . I really touched for their effort and for having them in my life . Although now everyone went to their own way to pursue their ambitions, I'm still here not forgetting all of them. Only we can accept harsh joke like ' sek2 cina babis' ..Hahaha.
I'm also happy, to go through what it is called birthday party.From primary to secondary school, in between these years, I had my birthday party. The feelings of happiness when you saw many of your friends come and celebrate it with you and the feelings of receiving lots of present. I still do keep those presents which are currently in my bedroom at the small cupboard. Everytime I opened the cupboard, I will surely smile :) Thank you all for this smile.It's seems so long that I don't see lots of presents anymore and I understand as we grow up, we will not be receiving much anymore.
Last year, it was the first year I celebrated my birthday without my family.Received cards and slice of cake and celebrated with also a group of my bestie.That will be grateful enough . I wouldnt ask for any presents as no one knows what I want.
This year, can I not celebrate? I just had a wish, me myself to be happy and everyone I know and I used to know, to be happy.Because the next year when I celebrate my besday again,I will remember everyone is happy and I'm happy without any sad memories.Just as simple as that.I'm not wanting any cards which write the best wishes but that only left memories.I just don't want to see the scene of a person brings a cake in front of me and the next year it left memories.
I just want a long lasting happy memories not a memory that makes me cry on my birthday.
If I do write anything wrong, forgive my heart and mind for all these :'(
Maybe one day there ll be one, but my heart and soul really begin to lost faith a little n little.
There is someone I know told me not to lost faith, make your heart always happy.I take this word and slowly pasting it into my heart again :)
Selamat Hari Raya and have great time with family ya!
Sincerely,
the most pleasant girl :p
