Challenges to burden

Semester break is going to end soon and I would like to write something on life in this simple blog of mine. I guess I have to say my blog is the story of my life :) haha.

Let's answer these two question here with me ! 

Does LOVE makes you stronger / weaker ?

How do u define a strong love / weak love ?

It seems that our love is so weak that you dun wanna face it again...Our love are defeated by the challenges that we couldnt overcome.I chose that because deep down I know, you already have the answer with u, just that you are scared to reveal the truth answer that is with you, in order for not hurting me.Choosing an answer that u r willing to, at least we both won't hurt too much as things goes into deeper although the answer I told you, me myself nt willing to.Letting go the person you love, is very suffering when ur heart actually not willing to do so but somehow u have to let go bcz the other side no longer cares about this relationship.

Many of us experience an absence of love because we are giving our attention to thoughts about life instead of real life.When we give attention to our thoughts about life, we are loving our mental world, and that mental world isnt real, and it is very often a negative world, where nothing and no one is ever good enough.When we are invested in this mental world, our conditioned beliefs, judgements,fears,desires and expectations seem really important, and these are what cause problems in our relationships

We think we need people to be certain way for us to love them and be happy with them, but that just isn't true.It just seems true because we tend to choose to love those who look and do things the way we want.But love doesnt have to be limited in this way. We can choose to love even when others aren't meeting our desires or fitting our fantasies and expectations.

When this happens, challenges in love can change into burdens.I know and I feel relationship has turning into a burden n pressure to u, the moment where everything I do, seems all wrong for you.Just I did know that all this while I hv been you burden.You will have no worries now or future as I'm no longer your burden.Walking away from your life, I'm sure is the best choice as I believe you can go back to your life when you havent gotten to know me.That will be better as facing me will be hard for you and at the same time, lessen the hurt in your heart.

Going back to the life without me, I believe will bring more happiness . Even becoming friends, will not be as happy as before because we couldnt back to how we used to be...

If friendship have gotten us more hurts n sadness like this, then I find it best to end it.At least, there are happiness.

It's enough to see u happy :)

Loving a person doesn't mean you have to own her/him as things don't always go as what we want.

It's pain to let go and accept the facts that you are not mine but somehow it has been destined.

Thank you for always making the effort to make me happy again for everytime that I'm sad or angry. Thanks for being patient by my side always.

Few days ago, right after my exam when I'm packing my stuffs to go bck to hometown, I asked myself, 'where are you?' . Me myself hav no definite ans and the thing that I only know is ' you are gone'.When I wan to keep my laptop into my bag, I remembered you used it before and you asked me 'why no movies?'.That time I told myself, whether there is movie or not, it's not important anymore...because if there is any, you won't be here to watch anymore :'(:'(

Sometimes I ask myself, 'why there is only pooh bear?' and thinking for the 2 bears you gave me..

Yesterday, when I'm in the bus on my way to KLIA2, I remembered last time you said 'you wanna accompany me to lcct ' but I refused to because I scared you will be tired to travel here n there and you have stuffs to do too. 

You might forget the things that u ever ask or said to me but all that are still buried in my mind and now it seems like living without you brings much more happiness to you. Being the person that is loving you, certainly I wish u will be happier each day . I believe without me in your life, you will be happier :)

Love you <3..