Hello I'm back :) . No matters how life upset you, you have to be back here ! haha.I had bad weekends as I was sick ! How I wish you are here with me but, you gotta have your own life and mine with my life.Thanks for the chance that you give me to try to be a better person.I might not be what u wish to see me to be , but I promise you , I will live well and be happy.I'm sorry I can't be a better .... of yours.You and I knows best what actually was from the beginning and it's enough that you never lose faith on the hidden truth.
I never fail to cherish the moments I had with you and the only memories that I want to keep tight inside my heart are the memories between us that are full of laughter.Thank you for having been in the important part of my life.Everytime when I think that you are no longer in the important part of my life in future, I feel like everything I did is meaningless.Meaningless to be happy,to work on my dream and many more.Losing you means losing the part of me as I mentioned in one of my previous post.
For this year christmas which is your birthday, will be the first year I do nothing for you as the only thing I can do is to pray for you in my heart.Whenever I look every pictures of you that I combined in a slide video, I couldnt help myself to stop crying because that is the last thing I made for you. Sometimes, when I wake up from my sleep, I forget the facts that you are away, and the only thing I can do is, smile to myself and telling myself that ' everything had end' by continuing to get off from my bed to start my routine as students. Sometimes, I will run into tears if I ever forget that you are away.
For every chance that you give me to be better, I will not waste that although it's hard.You showed me the way to my own happiness, creating the independent me and a stronger person than I was before. As time goes by, I'm more pessimist, I will be better. Thank you for having faith in me for going through all these. It's hard for you to go through the wrong that others are pointing at you and you just accept it although u did nothing wrong. As for me, I have no doubt at all and have the believe in you because I know what type of person you used to be. What I'm angry was, the closest person you had with you, does not believe in you at that time and create lots of misunderstandings .
Eileen
