It will be almost 2 years I live my life on my own without the shadow of you.If I say, life had much more been easier and happy without you, I will be lying to myself.It had not been easy but it do gets better each and everyday and I have to admit the facts that time is the best medicine.It had never been easy to leave every single memories that had stayed in your heart strongly . To not to think, to not to talk, to not to see and to not to feel. It's hard.If a year ago, everytime I wake up in the morning, my mind is totally about you, now it seems that you hv been kept in other edge of my mind but believe that you are always here in a irreplaceable place in my heart.Im happy to see you being yourself especially the brave you....Not only reminds me to be a brave person,but at least I know it was not a forceful one..Before 2013 ends,I wish, we will meet but I know,I will be meeting a stranger not the old you . I understand the reason we are trying to forget all those reasons and acted like everything seem to be fine : ) Life gotta move on right , no matter how much it saddened you.
Walking into different path of my life, I begin to look life into different perspective and the value of being independent.I never thought I would be this strong but I'm certain that it's because of your motivation although you aint here anymore.I wish someday I will be able to fly to Taiwan once again because it is the places where I will think of you . I still remember that time, when I was there, I received your message and I was so keen to be back Malaysia but I just could not because I was in 10 days trip. My mood was not good and my face looks pale for about two days, I'm sick that time. As I reached a place where rocks are everywhere and there is waterfall too, I sat there alone dreaming as I was sick.There is where I think of many things and wish that you are there too for the breathtaking scenery.Back in Malaysia, I begin to explore the place you wish to go, Australia.Unfortunately, we could not go there together.
One thing that you would not know, I gave up medicine field because of you.You said I will be a good doctor but I'm sorry for disappointing you. Sorry I can't be a good doctor just like what you wish to see. I feel bad and this is the worst feeling ever.Leaving everything behind cause by the shadow of you, I guess is the right choice but it had not been easy.My decision is hard as I nearly choose to be a doctor . I know it had been my parents wishes that it is good if one of us could pursue medicine.I know it because at that time when I was about to send all the doc, I suddenly changed my mind and told my mum that I want to pursue medicine.I could see from her face that she is happy when I told her this, compare to i'm telling her that i'm going to pursue law.
Finally I choose law, although that decision of mine will disappoint you that wish to see me to be a doctor and would be able to take care of my family in future.I'm sorry for always failing to be a better ... of yours : ' ( . I know I promised you to be a good doctor but it all comes to an end.
TEDDY BEAR : )
