It's when you feel the PAIN that you are excellent doctor ! & Part 2

Part 2 of this topic, related to my experience of the second day being warded.I still remember on the night of my first day at the hospital, Dr.Tai told me-tomorrow (my 2nd day) will be a busy day for me because I need to go physiotherapy for few sessions,morning and afternoon session plus,I have to go for MRI scan.Sharp at 9 the next morning , Dr.tai's nurse came and inform me abt the physiotherapy and arrange for me a MRI scan too.there is a painkiller n a medicine called arcoxia that reduce swelling I need to eat.The painkiller is to reduce my pain when I do rehabilitation exercise.

Later,a physiotherapist came to my ward with a wheel chair n brought me to the rehabilitation center just below 1 floor from my ward.The physiotherapist is so friendly except for that particular man physiotherapist that probably acted that he is the doctor.I hated him since the first time I saw him,on that day itself.My bro and my aunt later arrived and accompanied me at the center.

One of the physiotherapist taught me a simple exercise that is lifting up my knee.They couldn't advse me to do more heavier exercise as the actual injury has not been determined bcz I hvnt do MRI scan.I felt that I'm such a failure and useless person as I could not even lift up my left knee .It is suffering that my brain said I shud lift up my knee,but the knee doesn't move even I forced myself.I tried n I managed to lift up but the pain is unbearable n I nearly cry.I couldn't straighthen my knee too.My bro juz force me to complete the exercise but I couldnt.I know best my condition.The man physiotherapist that I hated come towards me again and said 'I thought is a soft tissue injury only,u shud be able to lift up your knee'?told you havent do MRI still wan ask me question that a scanner can give the answer.this is the time whre he acted like he is the doctor and examined my knee and said to his colleague -'ACL injury'.Then they dun further ask me to do exercises and apply treatment to my knee to reduce swelling.

I realised there is totally no more joy that my knee just could not function like usual.It worsen and  my leg muscle is weak after 2 weeks could not not walk properly.

After the physio session I went for MRI scan.My first experience!haha.not nice at all! U just have to remain static and could not move your knees for 15 minutes.So torchering that you could not move yourself or else the result failed.Back to the ward room, I had a chit chat session with my bro and my aunt while waiting for the MRI result and Dr. Tai. At that time, Dr. Tai's nurse came and told that Dr.Tai is having a hand surgery and still couldnt come to the ward.We waited till afternoon and there came Dr. Tai ! haha.cool man...after surgery straight away come to the ward and analyse my MRI result.Suddenly, a nurse came to my ward room and told me that Dr. Tai waiting for me at the room where they analysed MRI and x ray.To have a clearer pic about the MRI film I need to go to that room . I walked using a walking stick ( the kind that the old woman usually used ) to that room.On my way to that room, suddenly Dr. Tai came out and saw me and it is at this time that Dr. Tai observing my leg through the way I walked.I wasn't know till after operation that he told me 'I remember I saw you walk so bravely even you have injury in your knee and I'm sure you can walk even better than that after operation' . Till then, I knew he had always been noticing the improvement on my leg without letting me know.I guess I understand the reason why I feel that Dr. Tai is a very understanding doctor.Although he is not the patient he feels what the patient feels and this is what makes him the best doctor in my heart.Not every doctors can stand at the patient's position and willing to understd the pain that a patient feel.

About the MRI result, I had a medial meniscus tear and he advised me to undergo arthroscopy surgery to trim my meniscus.I can't wait any longer because my meniscus will tear further in few months later.It won't heals on its own because the part of the meniscus that alrdy tear have no blood supply.If without the surgery, the meniscus might tear completely and causes friction between two bones.In the eyes of a patient like me, an excellent doctor is the one that will think more towards a patient future by seeing through future side effect that a patient might be going through.Dr. Tai did well in explaining that and I can laugh what he is saying some more and no stress at all.If the doctor talking to me is not Dr. Tai I guess I will just look seriously at the doctor and being so stress up.The room is filled with laughter when he is explaining and we are discussing together with my aunt and bro.

He went too far explaining towards long term about the possibilities that I will get married in future and might get pregnant and give too much pressure to my knee.LOL! I was so stupid replying him 'I'm not pregnant'.And he replied, my girl, I said long term not the short term.Of course I will be telling you long term instead of short term effect without the operation' .And I was so awkward ...and just laugh! I never thought he would think so far although he knows im just 18 at that time.My aunt laughing at me too . blushing**

Then my aunt asked me to call my mum and Dr. Tai explained too much that I dunno what shud I tell my mum.Thank you that Dr. Tai help to explain to my mum by using my phone as I called my mum on the spot.One of his conversation with my mum is that 'Don't worry..just a minor operation.I will operate her just like my own daughther.' I was laughing again when he said this .Before he left us for other patients that are waiting for him for since morning 10am at the waiting room till the afternoon, he said ' You all ar very funny ' . Hahaha.'Shall see you again tonight at the ward room and you can think about it first whether to undergo the operation or not and tell me tonight k girl?'

Actually in terms of his expertise I had no doubt at all . That time, he will be leaving for Perth and his timetable quite pack and is better if I could make decision fast so that he can find suitable time for the operation and it would be best if the operation could be before he go to Perth or else I had to wait after he came back from Perth which will be the starting of my semester.

Will write soon  ! maybe after finals . thank you for reading my blog .

Lots of love <3 <3

It's true that ' A simple body motion can bring much joy to an individual '

My birthday finally over but in this post, I will not be sharing about my birthday but about this special topic of my post.Some of you may think that this topic is just too normal but I knew what Dr. Tai meant by when he said this.For me it is true and I agreed  that 'a simple body motion brings much joy to an individual.'

Thank you to Dr. Tai for bringing this joy not only to me but other patients as well.Maybe to the reader of this post could not feel the joy that I meant because you guys and girls never experience it before.What can I say, the moment you realise, some parts of your body had malfunctioning it is the time where there is no more joy.I guess in most part is our knees. When your knees give you problem, it is where your movement had been limited.You just could not stand straight when there is injury on your knee and when you walks,you are limping.It makes you tired and you end up to have waist pain and refuse to move.The most unacceptable part is that, when it comes to climbing up the stairs, you realised that you are useless and you have not much difference with a paralyzed person.I tried but only my brain said I should move but my leg being static and couldnt move and lift up.The only way to climb up the stairs is by sitting down and for every steps of the stairs, i need to use my hand to lift up my leg in a sitting position.

After finals of the last semester in foundation, my mum came down Malacca and bring me to GH for appointment with the specialist there.After the appointment,we went to malacca sentral because my mum wanna do her spectacles.When I reached sentral,I walked into it and it looks like I'm pretending because I walked slow without any support.I chose a spot to sit while waiting for my mum to do her spectacles.The doctor said I couldnt move alot especially when he injected something on my knee for the main reason to determine whether inside of my knee had  injured or not.The result is YES ! 10 cc of blood is out and my knee is still swelling .I sat alone and thinking about what the doctor said about my knee and never pay attention to anyone else .My mood was very bad but I tried to control although I know my mum knew it.I know my mum just wanna make me forget what the doctor said by asking me whether I wanted to eat ice cream or other food but I refused to because I know I won't finish the food.

When it came to lunch time, my mum ask me whether I want to eat MCD for lunch and I said alright. I got off from my sitting spot and walk towards MCD from where I'm sitting which is the taxi stand with my mum.I stood up and feel like wanna crying because my leg just could not move.I still tried and acting brave to walk by holding my mum but on that point onwards,I knew I couldnt move my leg.I managed to walk halfway and still a long way towards mcd from my sitting spot.I stopped and I told my mum I couldnt walk anymore because it's painful and tiring.When I walk more, my knee keep swelling and more stiff.On this time, my eyes started to be watery and tears rolled down from my cheeks, for this moment,there are no particular sense of joy anymore but I feel blessed to have my mum beside me.

Later, we decided to have our lunch at the nearby restaurant from where I stopped my walking and I never eat all my food as something wondering my mind.I just feel helpless when I think back what the doctor had said to me.My mum ask me to forget what  the doctor's say . The doctor suspected about the injury on my meniscus or ligament and at that time I was so blurred,which part in my knee is meniscus?haha. The doctor still wanna see my condition in 2 weeks time and the only thing I can do is to reduce my swelling by icing.Everyday for every 2 hours I iced my knee for about 15 minutes .The swelling did reduce but it will come again.No matter how hard I tried to ice my knee the swelling will still come.I told myself to be optimistic and continue to ice my knee for about a week to monitor my knee.After 1 week, I knew and very sure my knee injured very seriously. Every night before I slept, I scroll websites about orthopaedics information regarding the main ligament, anterior cruciate ligament because the GH hospital doctor emphasizes on that. I did search about meniscus injury symptoms too.Both search about meniscus and ligament told me that one of the symptoms it looks similar is SWELLING. Oh god ! I browsed the internet about the cure and many did gave me a cure that only ORTHOPAEDICS SURGEON  can give me.I admitted that I was so sad when I knew more about my knee condition and I made my choice to go for MRI in private hospital.I told my mum about everything that I research about and my decision to straight go for MRI without having to wait semester break finish to go for the appointmnt with the GH hospital doctor again.

My mum allows me and made her research about doctors.Since my aunt going to KL and she recommended Sime Darby hospital , my mum made an appointment with Dr. Tai Cheh Chin.Few hours before I depart for KL by my aunt's car, my mum showed me in the website which doctor I should meet through the profile picture displayed .hahaha ! Luckily, she did showed me or else I would think that Dr. Tai's nurse is my doctor.hahaha !

My very first picture of my injured knee : )

Till here and we shall meet again for part 2 of this particular topic 

' A simple body motion can bring much joy to an individual' - Dr Tai Cheh Chin

Sincerely, 

Young girl 

p/s: young girl is what Dr. Tai always call me when he emphasizes that I'm still young because I'm 18 : P

3.8.2013 -happy day

This date is one of the happiest day ! haha : ) I finally met doctor tai ...my most respected doctor .

The feelings after few months of study and back to the hospital is just like my first step into the Sime Darby hospital in Subang Jaya .Dr. Tai's personal assistant had been smiling at me when I reached to register and waiting for my turn.Haha.We have been friends through text messages and she remembered my name too.Probably because I'm so funny in the doctor's room that sometimes the questions I asked, made everybody laugh including the nurse and Dr.Tai .I just dunno why.

My first question on the day of consultation that day with Dr Tai had made him laugh at me.LOL.haha.I just miss Dr Tai's visiting to the ward .Recalling back the first day I met Dr. Tai , before I entered to the consultation suite, he gave me a very good impression.His personal nurse, asked me first about my conditions and wrote it down and discussed with him . At that time, I told the nurse the reason I came is to make a MRI scan without x ray as I had already made an x ray previously in GH malacca.But somehow I didnt have the copy of the x ray .At that time, it havent reach my turn , and after discussing with Dr. Tai the nurse said that Dr.tai wants me to do the x ray first.I just agreed with the nurse and few minutes after talking with the nurse, Dr. Tai came out and saw me but at that time he wasn't recognized me because that day was our first meet and my turn havent reach yet.After he saw me, he asked the nurse whether I'm his patient that going wish to have MRI scan and then he came to me and have a little talk with me before he goes off very rushly to somewhre else.That is the time, he gave me the very first good impression of a doctor that is not arrogant like some other doctors and the way he rush himself shows that he cares every patients are waiting for him.

When my turn had reached, he look into the x ray scan and said that evrything is ok in the x ray result and he examined my leg.He examined which part of my knee hurts alot while I was at the lying state.He pressed on my knee, bend it and pressed some parts of the knee to determine which part hurts the most.The last part of examining was that , he made a Zig- Zag on my knee and that is where I shouted for pain ! I grab hold the wall right beside me and felt the pain for few minutes.That time, Dr. Tai said ' I'm sorry, I'm sorry and I'm sorry ' and made a decision that ' alright we will go for MRI '.Dr. Tai transferred me to another hospital to be warded which is the Sime Darby hospital in Ara Damansara. He said there is more like a 5 star hotel plus not very busy and things can be done very fast like examining the MRI .

What he said is indeed true. I used to see how hospital life is all about and I really hated being warded in the hospital.But Dr. Tai made me even love the life in the hospital more few months ago back in Sime Darby Ara Damansara hospital.The hospital is so peaceful that right in the ward room, I can know Dr. Tai had came for visiting by hearing his voices from the ward room i stayed.The ward room I stayed have got attached private bathroom and a LCD TV right in front of my bed and a very clean surrounding.It gives me a home feeling and I feel so lucky . 

There is alot more to say actually as this is just the first day of my experience of being warded.

Lots of love <3 <3

Eileen

To a special friend of mine

I begin to realise what a relationship need the most is this word  TRUST . Without TRUST you couldnt be happy in a relationship,without TRUST your love for your partner will continue to ceast with time and without TRUST a relationship will works only halfway.

I guess you should be honest in what you are doing to gain trust from others including your partner.How could you cultivate trust from your partner if you yourself could not be honest to others? If you love her, you should change and prove to her that you are the only one that she trust of all your love that you shattered upon her.

Maybe your love for her is too deep that you could not see how the way she treat you is just concern not LOVE ! If that is truly LOVE at that time, she would not have reason to say that's not LOVE now .